the journey so far

this was the day that we both passed the verto intake! june 25/26 would have been when we first "met", but i think the 30th is a far more important date for both of us. it was a start and a light in the dark for your situation, that you would receive help with job seeking, income, and support - and make many fun memories in & out of the program. on that day HOPE was born... aight i'll kms

this was the day you first added me on discord!! before this, i remember a notable convo between us and osama being about anime cons and it was smth that sparked my interest in you. i also remember a convo about Obey Me and you literally jumped with excitement, you are so cute... we had also started to walk together a few times and talk more

we talked a bunch about music tastes - you introduced me to visual kei in general, particularly malice mizer! you also gushed about TOP - in the future you also showed me your kpop groups you loved - ATEEZ, seventeen, big bang. i enjoy hearing you talk about your passions, we should talk about music more i'm always curious

this was the day u started playing UMAMUSUME!!!!! i was, and still am very excited that you got into it and enjoy it ♥

we started to regularly take the bus home together!! we talked sooo much, rmbring ur fame on the internet and all sorts of accounts u had heh, this was also the day i learned about sam (hope he dies!) and your situation, it must've taken trust and courage to open up to me about it, thank you

this was the day verto had us do coldcalling exercises, i feel its notable because you hate phone calls and coldcalling, but you powered through and called multiple places, it was really impressive and its still a showing of growth even if its a small thing! be proud of yourself

this was when we had the verto tims activity!! which resulted in you getting immediately hired but not being told at all until a month later LOL... but u KILLED ITT!! it was a fun time but we were separated :[ but after heading back to verto we hungout, and we also hugged for the first time!! i still like hugging you, and its been too long since we've gotten to have a long, tight hug

we went out together to a thrifting event! if i recall correctly, you styled your hair in pigtails! and you thrifted a fur jacket, we also went to a place that had apple cider and i got to try that for the first time, and more importantly we held hands for the first time yippie!!

this was the first time you came over to my apt!! we watched smile 2 and snuggled, it was an unforgettable time, this was also the day we started to call each other lovers and become official! we also had a talk about how it mentally felt for you since it was cheating. i believe in 99% cases we would never condone or aid cheating, you are not a bad person and i know how moral you are. looking back, we were very driven by that early honeymoon phase combined with your situation and shit sam's done that even tho it was against our morals i think it's justified, it can't be viewed like regular cases of cheating. i don't regret being your bf and choosing to love you.

JULY 28TH YOUR BIRTHDAY!!!! including july 27th because you hung out with lilly then! you two went to a sushi place and she got you a namgyu cake which is incredible, looking back on this day makes me admire once again how much lilly has your back and how you two love each other its very sweet. july 28th was a verto day but afterwards you showed me to kawaii alley and gushed about kpop albums, i had also bought you a my melody plushie i think on the 26th! you had a banger birthday and i hope you remember how loved you are

you went barhopping for ethans birthday! unfortunately sam was there but i know you enjoy barhopping and drinking, and spending time with other friends is nice

you spent time with lilly and dyed your hair PURPLE!!! you look sooooo gorgeous in purple, and you took a picture where you looked like Rize with your glasses on, ur so goddamn BEAUTFIUL GUHHH

i think this was when you told me how you stalked my twitter before i ever told you? i still love this fact a lot, very impressive and endearing of you

i think we played fortnite for the first time, it was a pretty silly time i enjoyed it a lot, i hope you look back on it fondly too

HUUUUUUUGEEE UNFORGETTABLE COUPLE DAYS!! this was animethon!! you want as reze for day 1 and raven for day 2/3 alongside lilly as starfire! if i remember, unfortunately you couldnt get to do thanos&namgyu bcuz the outfits didnt arrive in time or something? BUT ANIMETHON WAS MASSIVEE!! you got your Sick2 CD signed, gene said u were as pretty as a ruby (TRUE & REAL), there was the sick2 meet & greet, the miku concert, you got to meet jaydon, so many people asked to take a picture, you got a photo with shou, there was so so many awesome things it was an incredible year, remember genes words; you are as "pretty as a ruby"

YOU GOT YOUR NAILS DONE!!! they designs you got done looked so freaking good, you got a bunch of compliments on them at verto if i recall too. its still such a shame you cant do your nails cuz you work at tims though... i miss them...

the 15th was when i made our shared discord server, but bigger news on the 16th was when we learned that YOU WERE HIRED BY TIMS!!! that you did so well at the verto tims thing they hired you on the spot - cant believe its been about 4 months already... my hard working girl

this was when you opened up to me about shifting!! i was so fascinated by it and i still am! i love the effort and dedication you have to it, and even recently learning that lilly also shifts... its genuinely so cool and interesting

we played marvel rivals for the first time togetherrrr!! i thiiink we also played with equi and kaio which was nice! this day i believe i also gave you the Nana shirt i got for you from uniqlo! i wonder if you still wear it sometimes we also went on a gemstone date at WEM when we met up, that was a really cozy time - i still remember you bought some gems? beads? and planned to make bracelets for us at some point, i hope you can find time for that in the future! you also stayed the night for the first time, it was a really lovely day

you styled your hair in pigtails again and GOD UR SO CUTE AND ALSO YOU GOT PIERCINGS!! spider bites around your lower lip and UR SUCH A BADDIEE!! you mentioned having to wait 3 months before you can change them to hoops, looks like enough time has passed!! upgrade time?!

you doodled your old OC Khu!! pretty cool to see her with your new improved art skills

YOUR FIRST WORK DAY AT TIMS!!! you killleeed it and got compliments from coworkers and julie - this day an ace was born....

you found your old cosplay account from 2021-2022! you showed me a couple vids of chica and nagito cosplay and its so CUUTEEE, I AM CRINGE BUT I AM FREE!!

i think this was when we had our first "us" day and spent a full day and a half together! it was reaalllyyyyy comfy and nice, iirc we mostly spent time at my house, i rmbr us watching tiktoks together, crime documentaries - i believe you also had a therapy session and we went together, i think we roamed around the city before the session and you showed me some places? like the mall and some secret passage, it was a really really fun and enjoyable days i look back so fondly on it, i hope we can have another us day

you got to play board games with elijah and a 27 y/o autistic guy, and you got to dress up, YOUR OUTFIT WAS SOOO GOOODD LIKE U WERE A NANA CHARACTER FR

this was when you started your yandere sim redesigns on tiktok!! AND BLEW TF UPPPP, such a crazy phenomenon u single handedly revived yansim art community and got famous

we watched the demon slayer movie!! also took quite a few pictures together too, really fun day, i remember having so much commentary during the movie lmao

i think this was the 1st or 2nd time you did drive thru at tims? i rmbr u saying how horrible it was, but honestly you gotta pat yourself on the back - look at yourself now!

you went to the bar with lilly and your brother for his birthday, then went to whyte av w/ just lilly!! you had a really fun time and bitch talked some drunk guy who tried coming up to you guys, it was pretty awesome hearing how fierce you were! i'm still deeply sorry for how i made you feel back then though, aaaa

you made/found your uma OC mood board, it was the first time i've seen one of your mood boards and i was fascinated and impressed by the effort and creativity, really cool!! you also went to the bar with ashleys group this day and had a fun chill time

you started working on a danganronpa tsumugi edit w/ the Spoken For song and showed me the WIP, it looked reaaally cooll i saw the vision and i rlyyy admire your effort and creativity sm

we had a small talk about how you felt a bit bothererd, like i'm not taking u being bi & queer seriously when i often use "guys" when talkin abt ppl i worry would hit on u. i'm glad u told me and i continue to use gender neutral terms in for that. i think this was also when i learned about your depressive episode

we hung out a bit at the mall after i finished work - it stood out to me because i was pretty sick but you still made some time for me. and your outfit you wore was SOOOOO GODDAMNN FINEEE!! you had exposed shoulders and were wearing heels, i remember while we were walking there was a couple of girls who looked at you in pure awe they were stunlocked by how gorgeous you are, seriously your fashion is amazingggg

you went to the bar with alex and ashley!! as usual your outfit was so fine you are BEYONDD BEAUTIFUL and you had a chill time, i really wanna go to a bar with you someday too

we established i should chill out on sexual comments as things have been very hard for you, thank you for letting me know that as its smth i keep in mind today. this day was also when you created your gahciakuta OC!! shes still so GODDAMN COOOLLLL her outfit her design her style her weapon, all so freakin coool i love your OCs

you got invited to a birthday dinner with a good bunch of your coworkers! really glad you got that opportunity and had a fun nice time, just goes to show that people like including you in things!

CAT CAFE DATE!!! we went to the cat cafe by whyte, it was a really nice time and i still think about it... you also edited me to be a swagapino cat LMAOO, we took a bunch of pics of the cats and you kept laughing at me for properly saying the drink names that were cattified heh

you got to hangout with lilly and went out for sushi!!!

VGEN TIME!! you were working on a commission board and drew your persona which looked incredible, and i was able to get you a VGEN code! i hope when things are calmer you can fully set it up and start doing comms again

we met for a brief moment and i got you another my melody plush, your reaction and smile were so so very cute, i wanna hug you just thinking abt it

we played overwatch together for the first time! i had a loooot of fun and i got to see how much of a gamer you are, widow legenddd, i wanna play with you again sometime!! you also showed me the gachiakuta edit you were working on and its PEAAAK

halloweeen!!! you carved a really cool looking pumpkin and i was super impressed to learn another one of your many awesome skills! im sorry you didnt get to have any grand halloween plans or anything but i enjoyed we got to talk

WORK RECOGNITION!!! the owner of tims told you how in a meeting the managers were saying you were AWESOME!! AND YOU ARE AWESOME!! i hope you realize that you will genuinely excel at any job you go to, you put in so much effortand dedication i just know you will always do great anywhere and its so impressive that you're capable of doing so

you talked to me about shifting again and i learned that lilly also shifts! you were telling me abt how you miss thanos and your squid game DR so badly, it was cute to see, you showed me your guys pinterest board too and it was so peak, i loved listening to you talk, you showed me drawings and tiktoks you were so passionate it was very endearing

we met up for a little bit and had a comfy time, i think we went to miniso land? - i bought a leather jacket for you but forgot to bring it that day, but we met again the next day and i gave it to you! this was also the day i wrote that document giving reasons i love you, i hope you can refer to it sometimes if you ever feel unloved, and i still have plenty more reasons why i love you :]

you went to miniso and got a nicee haul of stuff, good that you're treating yourself mwehe

you finished art of your gachiakuta OC where it genuinely looked like a manga cover it looked AMAZINGGG, your rendering and composition skills are incredible and you keep constantly improving as an artist its wild

HAZBIN HOTEL OCS!! you showed me your old hazbin OCs of you and lilly, and how you redrew new ones and THEYRE SO GUDDDD, your character design skills are immacculate rarghhh

we met & hungout a bit after your work, we went to makers and you kept bantering with me, it was a rly fun and nice time and im always happy to see you. you also told me about very heavy things youre dealing with, thank you for that. i'm still so sorry for how i must've made you feel with my rambling and misunderstanding.

BABY RED!! and animation!! you showed me drawings of baby red and teen red, and an animation you were working on, despite it being years your animation looked so good, ur so MARVELOUS

CSM MOVIE!! we watched the CSM movie and it was peaaak, it was also pleasant that it was an empty theatre. we also ate some sushi before the movie ty for sharing with me, i had a very fun time and was glad to see you again. ur literally reze

EMPLOYEE OF THE MONTHHH!! finally getting big recognition you deserve at work, you should be employee of the month every monthh ngl

you went to the oilers hockey game cuz u got tickets from being employee of the month! im sure u had a good time

the day the website has been finished. started on 12/12, finished 12/14 - i spent the entire day from 9am to 11:13PM finishing it on 12/14. if you've scrolled this far, click the up button to go back top and go to the remembrance page!! thanks for taking the time, i love you!!